Monday, April 23, 2007

Changes

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while.


A couple of weeks back a friend told me in a sarcastic, teasing manner that 6 months have passed since I’ve been residing in the same place in Manchester.The obvious reason of this is the constant moving around in this great metropolis. I have lived in 5 different places since I’ve been here (2 years 7 months). Previously, while living in Mexico City, I changed another 5 times (7 years); the only long term house has been that of my parents 18 long years. Eleven different houses of which only one has been really home.

The decisions to go to Mexico City and Manchester have been consciously and thoroughly thought through. It never crossed my mind of the affects this would have, I didn’t think about anyone else but me and my brilliant future. I knew from the start that it was I who wanted the change to happen. I was ready to face the unknown. Some friends could not understand why I needed to leave and experience other things, while others, sad but excited encouraged me to take that first step into a new world without the protection of my family and loved ones. So it was me who took the plunges and other had to accept it. I was the one moving and they were the ones staying behind.

Now, seating down in front of my PC, looking back at the last 2 months I realise how one person’s decision can change someone’s life, turn it upside down from one day to another. It only takes a couple of seconds to unleash a chained reaction of events. The consequences are immeasurable; no one truly knows the extent or magnitude of it. Sounds dramatic but its true, however, sometimes those decisions have to be made even if you know or expects what is coming, selfish as it sounds, you have to think about what is best for you, what you want.

The day has arrived where the influence of those external decisions has altered the way a live my life. Not in a bad or good way, it’s just different from what I have been accustomed to. It’s now my turn to accept what has been imposed. I look back and I wonder what changes I have provoked when I took those big decisions of moving out of my home and my country. Time will be in charge of making me know the consequences.

“The whole world is moving and I'm standing still.”

4 comments:

Caleb Rascon said...

"You're not here to find out what your choice is. You have already made the choice. You're here to find out why you made that choice. [...] We can never see past the decisions we can't understand."

The Oracle is a very wise program =)

The decisions we face are always bound by the butterfly effect that borderline them... there are certain things we can't control, and, thus, certain things that will affect us regardless of who, what, or where their source is. Interestingly, that source could might as well be yourself, and your thoughts are a good evidence of that: your decision have affected others' which in itself has affected you and your way of looking into things that you're doing... congratulations, you are now an infinite loop, but nicely spiraling down to it's unapproachable end:

i = 1
while i > 0
i = i - (1+sqrt(5))/2
end

you'll probably be close to being done in the 20th iteration, but you'll have lots to do even then... welcome! =)

Anonymous said...

People used to say that kids are like sponges, certainly all of us are a full time sponges. Everything outside influence our life in some way, even more than we can imagine (unconscious or knowingly) and you're right, we touch other's life also.


My personal challenge is be & feel free to find me. Free to think, listen, ask, say, try .. free to choose between all the possibilities, all the points of view, all the truths.


time it's great!, put everything in the right place .... mmmm .. NO NO NO .. not in all the cases!!!
time + gravity do the opposite :P

aDn said...

as with Zurich.... "because change happenZ". Keep it real, keep it simple, keep it near to your heart if you value it. Hope you're ok :) wuv: me

Victor said...

lleli, ya escribe otra cosa!